Wrestling With Obedience

For me this post is not necessarily pertaining to outward beauty, but we each will have our own set of circumstances that this may put some meaning towards.  Lately, being the last several months really, I have felt a sort of wrestling with obedience in my life.  Not in a clear cut I know what I need to be doing sort of way, but rather an inkling, that is pushing me in a certain direction.  I always think that I struggle with these types of decisions because I am not really certain if that is what I am supposed to do.  But by chance could it be that instead,  it is not something that I want to do?

Letting go plays a huge role in these types of situations.  Why do we find it so hard to let go of control, when if we look back over past events in our life and of those in the Bible, the results though not necessarily immediately favorable, did in the long run work out for the better?  I, personally, do not enjoy the feeling of not being in control.....yet being in control is very tiring work!  Since this blog is more geared towards self image type things, I can do a little relating there.  During the years of my eating disorder, control was a chunk of the root of the problem.  It was a lot of work hanging on to the eating disorder, and there was a lot of fear and worry towards letting go!  I knew I needed to be obedient and let that behavior go, and I can not even put into words the freedom of being that came from being obedient and Letting Go!

As each day progresses and more time goes by, learning to be obedient even in the smallest detail, can heap immense amounts of blessings in our lives and into the lives of others.  Pray with me that we can let go and not be afraid of the impact that obedience will have in our lives!!

"By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going."

Hebrews 11:8